Hi Joey I’ve been following your journey for a while now and just this past year I found myself using kratom everyday during a difficult mental health crisis. Prior I was using kratom for the past 5 years but was able to keep my usage low to only on the weekends about only 6 grams once on sat night and 6 grams on Sunday. Now I’ve spiraling out of control and kratom is not even working for me anymore no matter dose size.I’m currently going through a benzodiazepine taper which I know on itself is dangerous to use kratom during this time but my dr over prescribed me Ativan and I got unintentionally physically addicted. I use Javanica and Hirsuta and they seem to be the only thing that works or thing that I feel. I’m all over the place right now and have no plan on what to do to get off. It’s not interfering with my life as I’m a mother of 4 young kids and taking care of my home and husband well, but deep down kratom and it’s alternatives are weighing down on me and I really need some help or some guidance to get through this so I can get enough willpower to take a few months break and go back to my original kratom routine which worked perfect for me before I got mentally sick. Right now I’m taking kratom twice daily at 12 grams per dose .