What should I do if I decided I don't want to be Christian anymore?
Hi my name is Noah I'm 13 and bisexual my pronouns are they\he\she (note I that I hadn't come out as gender queer when this story happened) a couple of months ago I came out to my traditional church as bi. Initially things were ok my pastor (who I was very close with, yes know I see how weird that is) was honest that he thought it was a sin but said that I belonged there and mattered there. But as I came out to more people problems started to arise, like one Sunday during life group time one of my youth leaders out of no where insisted that I was gay by choice and fueled a girl who was saying the same thing (by the way the girl's name is Sophia and she's always been this much of a bitch)soon it was two against one and all the life group seemed to be siding with the leader and that bitch Sophia. I cried in the bathroom then told my pastor who did nothing. Then a couple weeks later my pastor (btw his name is Jon) wanted to meet with me and my mom (btw she's so supportive). He called my mom in first she was in there for twenty-five minutes which I thought was weird. Then Jon called me in and broke the news to me I had been kicked off the worship team (I couldn't sing Christian rock on stage with a band. I took vocal lessons every week for two years and I'm amazing at singing) and could no longer volunteer with the children because I'm gay. And apparently didn't fit there atheistic with my "decision". I was devastated I had faithfully served this church for two years constantly volunteering, donating MY OWN things, participating in all the youth activities, this had been my home. But because I came out all that didn't matter to them. My mom cried with me in the car but after taking sometime for some reason we decided to go back, to give them a second chance but I was continued to be treated badly. So I left for good. Now before the incident I was the most devoted Christian you've ever seen I read my Bible every day, I did a devotional every day, I only listen to Christian rock but now I do none of that. I no longer count down the days until Sunday or go to extra church activities. I don't go to church because we haven't found one yet and also I don't really even know if I believe in God. Can you help me?